Tired.*

Arguing is taking it's toll on me.
I'm tired of the implied HELL that
we go through and it's gotta stop.
It's not just one of us that
does it either.
It's a combination of my emotions
and your emotions and my opinions
and your opinions that cause this
volatile situation that we
CONSTANTLY put our selves in.

It's at the point now where you
saying, "I'm sorry", is a monotonous,
statement that I don't care for.
Do you realize how hard that is?
To not care if the person you
love apologizes?
I could lie and say that it's
just another issue we have
but I'd be lying my ass off.
We're great for each other.
We balance in a great way when
we're on good terms and we make
each other laugh and feel great..
..Most of the time.

I can't help but love you.
If I explain our situation to friends,
they say leave and don't look back.
And I've tried and I can't.
I honestly can not give you up.
I'll be ok for a couple of days..
And then it's like.. I need to
talk to you.. I need to look
in your eyes and see my reflection.
I need your tight hugs and your
Trident/Winterfresh [lol] flavored
kisses to make me feel good.

You are the person I love.
You always have and you always will.
I can't even try to convince myself
otherwise because in reality, I'd
probably be the opposite
of sane if it wasn't for you.

I LOVE YOU!